Leaving..

First, Zhen, tomorrow is ur b'day!!! Happy birthday! i'll text u again on the actual day... So guess u'll be in SG yea?

Bought a bag for perth... cus i'll be throwing it ard and the restaurant is not exactly very clean, i am putting my dear bags at home.... So we got it from DKNY... It's a new arrival, so, not on sale... (-.-) Bf offered to pay for it but in the end i told him we can just share... that's very sweet of him... (^.^)

More things to buy.. like hair dryer, cleanser, perfume (getting it from DFS), so on and so forth...

Wont be blogging when i'm over at perth cus there wont be much time for me to do so... But just texted to my SG number and i'll reply with my aussie no....

Gonna save as much as i can... And will be gg to HK when i'm back... July and Aug will be HK season sale... Shiok! Bf and family will be gg in july... Asked him to tabao some good stuff back first... heh....

And when i come back from HK, it will be the release of results.. oh my.... stresssss..... i am so dead....

Grey's season 6 has come to an end... waitin for season 7....

Bf rented 10 DVDs in one shot from a fren's dvd shop.... That crazy boy...

And oh ya! Recently bought a pair of shoe from lacoste... Love it~!! Isn't it a lovely pair of shoe?? heehehe....

Review

i cant concentrate~~~!!!

OH! and there's an interview today.. wanted to give it a shot... but... i held back...

Not for any particular reasons... just dun think i'm ready... maybe the next one... maybe... and i am kinda scared... hahaa.. to be honest... it's not like it's a sure thing... so.. u knw... not exactly confident in that...

And the thing is.. the current bf doesnt knw about it... i told the "previous" one when we first got together, and we had a huge fight... i dun wan history to repeat again.. so, i am just gg to remain silent and only reveal when i get it...

Nope, i am not lying... just not saying it JUST YET...

Graduating in a 2 weeks' time... 19th May.... and i'll go over to perth for a couple of months... then, i'll be back to rock and roll~! Get myself ready for the real working world....

I'll try my best in the following:

1) Save more money from perth, which will be easy since i work day in and out..
2) Lose some extra KGsss, which is the toughest esp. if i am gg to perth!
3) Deal with the largest organ in the body - skin
4) Get the job, which is not exactly very easy...
5) But shld i grow my hair or keep it short? it's kinda in an awkward length now!
6) Maintain a healthy r/s, like now...

(^.^)

1St Month

This is a lil creation for our first month! hehehe... More to come!

YooHooo

As u can see in fb.. i am attached.. hahhaa... the guy whom i am hanging out with now is the new bf... heehee.... BUT not much of fun now... we are both mugging hard to graduate... After exams i'll be gg perth for 2 months.. then bf will join me to sydney for hol.... then back to sg n start hunting for jobs! For sure, i'll try out my all time fav. interview... (zhen, u knw.. heheehe..) then, meanwhile, i'll search for others too!

Not much update recently cus i am either gg to sch or studying with bf or spending time with him... Frens said i look oldER as days go by... omg.... NOW i am starting to worry... haha... looking old has never crossed my mind cus everyone used to say i dun look like my age... but now... hmmm.... hmmmm.... i can see plain-ness in me... dull colour in me.... serious talkin in me... hahha....

OK! i will update more soon! Exams in 3 weeks time!!! Graduating on 19th May!! BEST of luck for me pls!!!!!!!!

Nv Enuff

Totally no time to blog!! It's either partying HARD or studying HARD... hahahhaa... no time for confusions and complications... gonna put them all aside n just concentrate on wad i wan now! hack all the disappointments and looking-forwardness... If it comes, good, if not, no diff.... i knw i might sound a lil arrogant here... but, u shld knw.. sometimes waiting for too long, it dampens ur anticipation n u just wanna back off... no one to blame... just time... i have gotten back all my frens i've lost in the past 3 yrs... n i am loving every single bit of it nw.... if the next someone cannot tk this, like the life i love, the frens i adore, the way i am... then i am sorry.. i am not gg to make the same mistake twice...

Prelims in a few weeks.... pheww.... at least one module is done... gonna buck up with the other 3 !!

Pics are all in FB! Studying life is gg to be done soon.. i need to cherish all i have nw.... it's nv gg to be the same anymore after JUNE... Perth will be my home for the next 5-6 months... Altho i really would like to go for the interview in s'pore, but... my family is more impt at the moment... Wait for me, S'pore...

Wonderful Weekend

I had a great weekend... consider it to be the first of feb..... (^.-)

Hanging out with pple i love makes the night so worthwhile....

Friday was with my dearest Jerlyn and fren, Tim.... Supposedly to Butter, but ended up @ the Merlion and coffee bean.... Then to Zouk, but just the entrance as well... hahhaha... nowadays i happen to hang out alot at different club's entrance... hahhaa...weirdo...

Sat was with another bunch of frens... lovely ones.... watched Hachiko and went st james... (i went in this time.. not just the entrance... hahha...) Drank quite abit... Xavier parked his car soooooooo far away... it took us quite a while to get to the car park la! left the place ard 4, reached home, 5 plus... hahhaa... Had a fight (literally) with him outside my lift... hahaha... cus he didn't wan to accept my money for the dinner!! Movie was free, dinner was free, st james was free, drinks were free, ride home was free.... c'mon!! how can it be this good?! hahhaa.... aw... soooooo sweet n nice of them la!!

It's sunday! gonna start mugging now..... Prelims are coming..... Oooooo.... Stress.....

I Need A Pill

Messy! is the word that purrfectly describes my life RIGHT now...

Be it love or social or work... It's all in a mess... well, not complicated-kind-of-mess, just crumbs everywhere, drop a lil here, pick a lil there kind, i suppose... can u understand what i'm trying to say? okay, nvm... it's like mutual feelings but not tgt... it's like i knw what i wan after i graduate but i can't get it just as yet... it's like i longed to meet up with somebody but we always missed the chance... and so on, and so on......

Studies are caaaraaaaiiiiiiizzzzzzzzz!!!! prelims starting in march! and i'm only done with one module!! the other three are eagerly waiting for me to flip thru them and put them into good use... BUT, i'm lazieeeee.........

I'm becoming quieter... day by day.... i feel that i'm growing.... but not as jovial as i used to be...Things aren't getting better.. ok... maybe a lil progression.... bit by bit... for it's too slow for my pace....

i did something extremely brave a couple of days ago.... but i'm starting to regret nw.... hmm... shld i say regret? hmm..... maybe more of worried about the consequences it will lead to.... maybe good, maybe bad....

I drew this simple concentration card to keep myself focused... it worked... but for awhile... hahhaa....

Secrets

Everything you need to know to be a traffic-stopping, eye-catching, pulse-quickening Boomshell...

1. Send all the right messages without saying a word.
2. Undress like everyone's watching.
3. You can get by on a wink & a smile, so do it.
4. Make what's underneath count.
5. It's not what you wear, but how you wear it.
6. It's a jungle out there, so go ahead, get a little wild.
7. Enter a room like you own it... Make every exit a grand one.
8. If you can walk the walk, there's no need to talk the talk.
9. Draw them in with just one look.
10. Always leave them wanting more.
11. Keep all eyes on you with a lil oomph & a whole lot of attitude.
12. A sexy pair of lips hold the key to the heart, so keep the kisses coming.
13. Life's a game......& the rules should always be sexy.
14. Always be fashionably late.....they will wait.

99 Truths

WHAT WAS MY:

1. Last alcohol drink : Red Wine
2. Last phone call : Uncle BoBo
3. Last person you text : Xavier
4. Last song I listened to : Bad Romance
5. Last time I cried : Almost half a yr ago

HAVE I EVER:

6. Dated someone twice : hmmm... maybe?
7. Been cheated on : Nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : hmm... don't think so
9. Lost someone special : Yes and regretting it..
10. Been most depressed : yea, but after awhile, it will heal..
11. Been drunk and threw up : oh my! yes! haha...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Pink
13. White
14. Navy Blue

LAST YEAR HAVE I: (2009)

15. Made a new friend : Tons!
16. Forget my ex boyfriend : Yes, have to
17. Laughed until I cried : Nope...
18. Met someone who changed you : yea, thanks to the person..
19. Found out who's my true friends were : hmmm.. i knew it all along...
20. Found out who's your enemies were : Learning not to hate anyone
21. Have any one night stand : last yr? nope!
22. Grow any taller : still the same leh!!
23. Thought of settle down with someone : last yr right? nope..
24. Have you had a great birthday : na... normal..
25. Wanting to change my name: love my name just fine...

WHAT IS:

26. What is the most expensive present I've received : hmm... some branded stuff..
27. What time did I woke up everyday : 10... to go for classes..
28. What would I do at midnight : prepare for bed..
29. Name something I LONGED for : a real love.. it's hard for me to fall in love...
30. Last time I saw my dad : yesterday?
31. What is the 1 thing I wish I could change about my life: studied harder..
32. Dated a girl named Kathy Lau : Dun even knw this name!
33. Lost a friendship : almost, but got it back..
34. Missed my ex boyfriend : Nv la! got better things to do!
35. Most visited web page : FB
36. Whats your real name : my name lor!
37. Nicknames : Mayi, Sotong, Ah Dai, VanVan...
38. Relationship : u mean status? happily single..
39. Horoscope sign : Pisces
40. Male or female : F
41. Occupation : Student
42. Interest : Shopping!!
43. Eyes color : Black
44. Hair colour : Dark Brown
45. Big or small : not big not small
46. Height : 162.. haiz... i wanna be taller!
47. Do I have a crush on someone : Secret... hahhaa...
48: What do I like about myself : easy-going, i guess... lesser troubles also la!
49. Piercings : 7... hahhaha... 6 on the ear (4 useless ones) & 1 on the naval...
50. Tattoos : Tempted, but, no...
51. Dance : love to!
52. First surgery : when i was 4? minor one la..
53. First piercing : hmmm... should be very young... mummy brought me..
54. First best friend : Stephane and Hwee Ling
55. First sport you joined : swimming
56. First vacation : Gold Coast?
57. First Love : Mr Nah
58. Pink : sweet!
59. Eating: had choc rolls...
60. Drinking : Vege+fruit juice
61. I'm about to : do some studying...
62. Listening to : not listening to any...
63. Waiting on : graduating!!

MY FUTURE :

64. Want kids : 3 is purrfect..
65. Get Married : yea, ard 28 is nice..
66. Career : Confusing....

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. LV or Gucci : LV?
68. Dai Yang Tian or Zhang Zhenhuan : who are they?
69. Eyes or Lips : EYES! it's the soul..
70. Boobs or Dick : Boobs la!
71. Shorter or taller : Taller!!
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : hmm.... stomach...
73. Sensitive or loud : altho i'm sensitive enuff (sometimes waaayy too sensitive), i dun wan loud.
74. Hook-up or relationship : relationship
75. Romantic or spontaneous : i need more of romance now...

HAVE I EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger : dun think so..
77. Drank hard liquor : yea... and i hate it!
78. Lost glasses/contacts : purrfect eyesight!
79. Sex on first date : NV la...
80. Broken someone's heart : haiz.... i shld be put into jail...
81. Been approach by a girl : for wad?
82. Been arrested : oh... noo...
83. Turned someone down : always one leh! hahhaa....
84. Cried when someone died : c'mon! who won't?!
85. Fallen for a friend : of cus la!

DO I BELIEVE IN:

86. Myself : absolutely..
87. Miracles : praying for it everynight..
88. Love at first sight : believe that it might not be real too..
89. Heaven : i wan to...
90. Santa Claus : forcing myself to..
91. Kiss on the first date : kissing is romantic.. so, why not?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

92. Sleep naked : hahhaa.. i'm scared of cold..
93. Plastic surgery : wan to!! but didn't la...
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : no... faithful girl here...
95. Sing today : yup yup!!
96. If I could go back in time, how far would I go : 3 yrs back..
97. If I could pick a month to relive it, what would it be : Feb 2007
98. Are you afraid of falling in love : just afraid of maintaining it well...
99. Posting this as 99 truths : i swear they are true!

Ugly Duckling

My two cousins are pregnant... the one in shanghai (but came back recently) and the one in perth... Excited for the both of them... but also means i'll have to fly straight to perth after exams to help out with my pregnant cousin... Might be staying there for half a yr.... not sure, but most prob will be that long... and it also means that i cant go for interviews after my exam and i can only start looking out for jobs in 2011... and the weirdest part is i'll be celebrating yet again the new year when i'm back.. haha... that's fast~

Hmm... not as excited as the previous trip over.. but still, thinking of the mummy-to-be, i'm happy enuff to fly myself over... hope from now till june no one touches my heart.. if not, things will become complicated and troubles will bubble up... i can't go thru the same hassle twice....

I'm into tarot readings recently.. and only ppl who are facing unpleasant thoughts reads tarot cards everyday! I've downloaded tarot application on my iphone.. and i'm reading it like EVERYDAY! hoping things get better... and true enuff, the readings are comforting.. altho it might not be exactly accurate, but still.... a cup of comfort...

Sometimes i really wish i'm strong enuff... or at least, stronger....

WTH

Dun wanna think about it... dun wanna talk about it... dun wanna feel it... dun wanna knw it... dun wanna see it.... dun wanna it to even EXIST! The idiotic feeling is pouring on me.... i feel stupid and useless.... it's like my throat got stuck with a whole watermelon!!! (figure of speech)... i feel real STUPID! U knw the kind of feeling? like ur face suddenly turns icy? esp. when u feel embarassed and disappointed at the same time?

C'mon! It's supposed to be a good yr! wad's happening?! Not much time left... seriously... I regretted once, i dun wan it to slip it away the second time! ahhhhh!!!! Frustrated and Irritated...

Fuck it..

My Butt-ter Night

Alright.. i was home after mahjong... settling down and thought i could do some revision... Was sms-ing with a fren, and msn-ing with another.. told the msn guy i'll be staying at home, so i'll not be meeting him... then the sms one asked me to Butter! hahaha... was tempted alrdy... haha... give it a ONE MINUTE thought, and i started preparing... hahhaa... Everything was chop chop....

The queue was pretty fast, cus i think it was only 10plus when i reached... so, great! Met the rest inside, oh, and they are my new frens... haha... funny, cute pple la!!! And it was drink, drank, drunk... okay, minus the drunk part... just high.. Tipsy... cus i drank so much!! all the dares and "come la! who scared who!"... Dance and dance.. Altho the music was not exactly fantastic, but it's the crowd that matters!!! Down one last mug of beer (b4 that was all the vodka, bourbon, etc), and i can't stand straight.. haha.. Fren said it's time to get me home.. haha.. so, we left first...

Needed some fresh air, so we went to the river area and walked the bridge to get over to marina (i needed some water)... OH! and we saw this girl lying straight on the floor... Her frens were trying to carry her up, but she went flat down again... i think she was like TOTALLY in heaven alrdy... hahaa.... I actually needed him to hold me all the way, cus my heels were damn high..And after walking for so damn long, i decided to tk it off half way.. Sat down and took some pictures, sober myself up, and we continued our journey... After everything was done, we grabbed a cab and he sent me back.. When i reached the lobby, and saw the security guard, UTURNed! asked my fren to walk me towards the swimming pool instead... cus i kwn he's so gg to gossip and tell my mum he saw a guy holding her drunk daughter home! hahaa.... And that's so sweet of him to send me to my door... Thanks X....

There goes the poor msn guy... Wanted to come pick me up after my party, but i rejected his offer.. firstly, i dun really knw him well, secondly, i'm very comfortable with my own fren... He was really concern and yea... very nice guy.. but... hmm....

Anyway, Went Timbre with another bunch of frens on friday... the one in town was packed.. so we shifted to the one at east coast... cool place... Fantastic live band and delicious pizzzasss!!!!

And i won in mahjong!! hahahaa..... 2010 is so gg to be a fun year!!!!!

Peaceful New Year

I'm listening to Emi Fujita's album, camomile... this is the disc i've been listening everyday for the 4 months stay in perth... It plays as the background song in the restaurant.. and i'll hum tgt with the rhythm while serving or standing at the cashier counter.... It has got super calming and relaxing tracks and you can nv get sick of it.... It calms me down, literally... and makes me think... think positively and it clears my mind... This is how powerful songs can be at times.. It influences you so much that it becomes part of your life...

5 more months to graduation.... 4 more months to exams.... 3 more months to UOL revision, 2 more months to prelims + my burst day, 1 more month to CNY and Valentines...

Derrick is coming back in feb... really excited to meet up with the whole gang again~!

Meanwhile, i need to mug mug mug...... tests and assignments due next week!!